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An Early Anniversary Gift

Sid and I got to go out for a date night tonight. While we were in the thick of the intense treatments, some amazing friends offered to watch our kids so that we could have a night with just the two of us. I'm sure they intended for us to take that time together much sooner, but we finally took them up on it and celebrated our anniversary a day early. 

Dinner was exquisite and then we repeated our first date with a stroll around Utah State's campus. Happy 11 years to us! Each anniversary has been happily commemorated but we were especially grateful for this one.

With that in mind, we have GREAT news/results from Sid's CT scan from last week. There were no signs of metastatic disease! In other words, there was no visible detection of cancer.

Absolutely incredible.

We are obviously over the moon about this. As time goes on we are understanding more and more how unexpected this was. I know I'm being a bit of a wet blanket when I say it's a little bittersweet when we know families that aren't getting this kind of good news. 

This leads me into being a realist and grounding things a little. We aren't done fighting. There is still a high chance of it coming back, particularly in the next 5 years. Dr. Nevala said he "doesn't want to rock the boat". Sid's treatment is working so he's set to continue taking chemo pills and every 3 weeks getting immuno/targeted therapy infusions. The infusions could potentially be a life long thing. 

As for how things are going now, the only prominent side effect is fatigue. There are a few episodes of nausea every now and then, as well. This is nothing like what we dealt with when he was getting the heavy duty stuff. But it does have it's weight in it's own way. There are many nights when he is fully exhausted after work and doesn't have anything left to give to the day. I hold down the fort on those nights and there are days where I am only hanging on by the smallest of thread fibers and only because we ran out of adults in the house. But tonight was a good night spent together; our kids are healthy and strong; we have a really deep well of blessings to drink from. So cheers to great test results and more anniversaries together!

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